A Vow Of Hate

It doesn’t matter how devastating the outcome is; we can’t turn back time – can’t change the past – can’t fix the future.

Atone for you sins, wife

Good. Then, hurt me. Please.

Do you hate me, Killian?

The reason is because I need pain. It grounds me. Keeps me focused. And because I don’t want to fall back into that void of nothingness once again…I don’t want to mess this up again. I want to fix it, fix us… but I need to stay focused for that

I crave pain, Killian. Tell me you understand. Tell me you can give me what I need

You said I self-destruct and it’s true,

Atonement was righting the wrong.

I had been a fool in love and ended up with a half-dead heart. A piece of her soul died with her sister that night and in return, she killed me too. I didn’t think I could handle another heartbreak at the hands of Julianna.

I realized that it wasn’t even about hate anymore. It was always about trust and allowing myself to be weak for her again.