Planting Gardens in Graves III

you can’t find love

where it doesn’t exist

you’ll never get

because life has often
been a bitch toward me
an inconsiderate bitch

that loving someone
won’t always make them love you back

always make them love you back

maybe you’re so used
to having a partner
who never cares for you
maybe having someone like me
is too overwhelming for you
i think this is how i learned
to stop giving a fuck
i went cold, i became numb
this is how i learned
to fall short of feeling
for people incapable
of appreciating me
not easy.
sleep rarely comes easy
for the souls who linger
overthinking about overthinking
the playback of past events
haunted by the memories
of someone or something
possibly a choice, a regret
or desire to relive a mistake
in an effort to right their wrongs
those chances are non-existent
and so we struggle to live with our past
while trying to live in the moment
sleep never comes easy
all knowing soul.
when a woman is constantly hurt
she sees things for what they truly are
she’s heard it all before
you can sell your dreams
and tell your lies
but deep down she knows
nightmare 2010.
i believe that loving
the wrong person
is like experiencing a nightmare
that you can’t wake up from
until you’ve arrived at the realization
that loving someone
won’t

realizing that losing you
meant dodging a bullet
remove pain

you’ll never get

what you deserve

holding on to someone

who refuses

to love you completely

death and nothingness.

i too struggle just as much as you

let pain teach you
if it hurts
it’s a lesson

this was my mistake
this would later become
my biggest regret
losing me entirely
just to keep you here
failing to realize
that true love would never
force me to compromise
or abandon the things
that brought me peace